Matthew Siegel


Matthew Siegel (1984-present) is a poet from New York. His debut collection, Blood Work, is about his struggle with Crohn’s disease. He is currently a Wallace Stegner Fellow at Stanford University and teaches Literature and Creative Writing at San Francisco Conservatory of Music. Source

[Sometimes I don’t know if I’m having a feeling]

 Sometimes I don’t know if I’m having a feeling

so I check my phone or squint at the window

with a serious look, like someone in a movie

or a mother thinking about how time passes.

Sometimes I’m not sure how to feel so I think

about a lot of things until I get an allergy attack.

I take my antihistamine with beer, thank you very much,

sleep like a cut under a band aid, wake up

on the stairs having missed the entire party.

It was a real blast, I can tell, for all the vases

are broken, the flowers twisted into crowns

for the young, drunk, and beautiful. I put one on

and salute the moon, the lone face over me

shining through the grates on the front door window.

You have seen me like this before, such a strange

version of the person you thought you knew.

Guess what, I’m strange to us both. It’s like

I’m not even me sometimes. Who am I? A question

for the Lord only to decide as She looks over

my résumé. Everything is different sometimes.

Sometimes there is no hand on my shoulder

but my room, my apartment, my body are containers

and I am thusly contained. How easy to forget

the obvious. The walls, blankets, sunlight, your love.





Literary Movements:


Anthology Years:




Love & Relationships

Mental Health

Literary Devices:


the repetition of the same letter or sound at the beginning of words appearing in succession


a figure of speech in which words repeat at the beginning of successive clauses, phrases, or sentences


the absence of a conjunction (for, and, nor, but, or, yet, so…) between phrases and within a sentence


a line break interrupting the middle of a phrase which continues on to the next line


a comparison between two unlike things using the words “like” or “as”